Love
a word that many a song is sung about, many a poem is written about and many a heart is broken from.
Such a small word, really. Only 4 letters yet it can be overpowering and overtaking to many.
Well, this isn't a language arts lesson, it's a thought process of looking back, rediscovering and futurizing.
When did I first learn about love?
One would consider the first time I laid eyes on my newborn son. Maybe the first time the words "I Love You" meant more than just a flutter in my chest and a yearning in my belly.
I feel that is was when I first could think beyond today and imagine many tomorrows.
I thought I was in love so many times but infatuation, lust, lonliness can be fashioned into looking like love. I learned that lesson, with tears in my pillow, sobs wretching from my frame and a heart that felt like it was being crushed in my chest.
Sometimes complacency can be fashioned into love as well. That was 6 years of my life. It started out as a measure of love but began a downward spiral into sadness, infidelity, mistrust and a total lack of love.
Love.
Love was shown to me by the man I call my husband today. Because it isn't just today I see, but I see eternity.
Love came with a gentleness that supercedes passion. It was filled with respect, loyalty and trust. It was shown to me that all the angst that I thought came with love was unnecessary. Love was shown in the sound of his breathing, in the soft touch of his hand across my arm when we sat watching the non-sexy food network.
He showed me that love can really be a give and take, that I was the most important thing in his life, other than GOD. And that all the things I wanted to do for him, he wanted to do for me.
His love of GOD, even before he acknowledged his existence, was in his core. It radiated out in the choices he made and the way he handled all things. This undeniable love was not just to me, but to everyone he met. He cared for everyone the way he cared for me, and that amazes me, even to this day.
I wish I could say I had the same qualities like him, but I am far from it, but I strive to be like him. Filled with love that comes from his core that he unconditionally shares with all that he meets.
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